I’m writing this blog post to encourage anyone who is battling with insecurities. A while back I did a shoot for Authentic Magazine. I’d love to share a bit of the backstory, with a heart to release some freedom. You see, when the magazine approached me to do a cover story, it literally only really registered AFTER I said yes, that I would have to do an ACTUAL photo shoot. I am not kidding, when I say I was actually bricking it. The reason I was so nervous was because I struggle massively with strutting my stuff in front of a camera and ACTUALLY believing that I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
The honest truth is that, even though I’m often behind the camera, and run an image consultancy and am super passionate about calling out beauty in others - and even though I know 100% in my head that I am an image bearer of Christ and I am fully known and desired by God - nevertheless deep in my heart I can find it hard to accept this truth and as a result I often battle with feelings of insecurity. I am sure some of you can relate. It’s so silly. It’s such a lie. Yet it’s a reoccurring place of wrestle.
But I am SO glad I did say yes, because I was able to confront these dumb-arse fears, and get in front of that camera and just LET GO. By stepping ridiculously out of my comfort zone, by resisting my insecurities and choosing to believe afresh that I am who God says, I was able to slay those taunting giants and basically CHOP their heads off. And, it felt SOOO liberating. And because of this, these shoot pictures have become battle scars. Each one is meaningful to me. Each one has a story to tell and speaks of a lie that I had to wrestle with, confront and overcome - using weapons of God’s love and truth.
With this in mind, I would love to release this over anyone who needs to hear this today: “You are God’s masterpiece, just as you are - no matter what lies the enemy may try and tell you otherwise”. And I pray such a divine grace and courage over you if you find yourself on the battlefield, that you will courageously confront your giants today and slice the HEAD OFF of each and every one of them! x